Runawayscissors's Blog

Oh man my plans for many things are falling apart. Its disastrous.

But miss fishball claims that the bangkok trip will hopefully turn our luck around… both of us have not exactly had the best year this year. I like to be optimistic, but sometimes it is also tiring trying to find reasons to continue being so, when so many things are not going your way. But nevermind! I will find a way out i always do.

Bangkok was fun! i was happy that I was really able to put the past behind me. When you dont have grudges, many things become clearer and for a good reason too.

But today i flew to topman in a car and bought myself a jeans and 2 tees on its first day of sale. First day 12pm and i already cannot find the size of this particular tee i loved. bummers. The shopping bag is now hidden in a corner of my house so that my mom will think that i bought it for chinese new year Lol.

there is a possibility of a huge bulk purchase with scribblemates! But im not gg to say how many, very scared i will jinx it.

But pulling all these random stuff aside, i am still so bewildered how the chance of fate is so mysterious yet real that you cannot choose to ignore it. Just a few days ago, i met this stranger whom needed help with directions, hit it off in a conversation and proceeded to chat like old buddies (he was 63 yrs old so im gg with the flow) in a train. And amazingly, he could also tell the fortunes of people and off he went, telling me about my characteristics and reading me like the naked baby i was when first introduced to this world. Sometimes you can say i am superstitious, but hey, some things just find you, even when you are not consciously looking for it. So lets just put down all judgements aside, and marvel at the amazing miracles in life. Because this is already the second time something like this has happened to me, and i am just grateful for the advice im given by these blessed strangers along the stages of my life.

because someone gave me 100 gold stars, think its very mean of me to be a public bitch as well.

xoxo

then watch the biggest loser asia!

seriously, aiyo so poor thing. being a pui pui myself i can half imagine/understand/empathise what the contestants go through. With enough experience on oprah and personal life crisis dramas, Ive come to realise that many people with real unhealthy eating disorders usually become so huge because they are always trying to compensate for something. Its so heart-wrenching to see people telling their stories of how they were bullied when young for being the outstanding one, or how they had to learn to laugh at themselves. tell jokes about themselves on a constant basis to seem ok about their weight and try to fit in with others.

So the next time you have a gigantic friend. How about just sitting down, have a one on one time with him/her to find out what is the real reason behind the lack of motivation for them to buck up and lose weight. This is so important because as i see it, the lack of motivation can spiral so quickly into the lack of capability to lose weight, when they become so huge and unfit to even walk up a flight of stairs or play a simple game of any sort. These people really need more encouragement and comfort than anyone else (instead of having to find them in their food) and just have the support from the people around them to monitor and help them.

Lets all prevent Singapore from becoming an obese society! Till then, only soup based stuff for me for both lunch and dinner everyday till my Thailand trip! Fighting!

edit: in the spirit of world aids day, lets all pray for the those who suffer this terrible disease not due to acts of their own, but through the selfish actions of others. For these mothers and children, i pray that they receive the proper treatment and care they deserve.

” The best thing about getting lost, is what you find along the way…”

I like this. I guess all of us will feel rather lost in our lives once in a while, so instead of feeling sad about it, we might as well look forward to what may lie ahead : )

I mean there are people out there who are so meticulous in planning their lives ahead of them. I respect that they are so focused and applaud them for it… but doesnt it then make life a little tad boring? Not them im encouraging people to live aimlessly of course. God knows 99% of them dont make it forever. But its just good to have one big goal ahead of you and appreciate the journey as you grow and move along; you might just be surprised at the route you took eventually to fulfill that dream.

Saying this, i know its someone’s (or rather 7 peoples’ birthday today)

Happy Birthday! : )

will definitely earn me  much more per hour now than the work im currently doing. But i dont mind: from the sourcing of students, negotiating of rates, paying to agencies (if any), preparing for tuition, and the absolute horror of all, teaching very naughty children is more than enough to keep me away from treading such dark, dark waters again.

Its cool when you have no exams unlike everyone else, but it stinks too as nobody is available to play with you on a constant basis. Tennis buddies please complete your examinations asap!

Speaking of which, going to Thailand soon!! wow Its so difficult to control myself from using the money ive already earned from working part time instead of spending all of it on shopping and eating! even when it comes to cooking, italian herbs are just way too expensive over here. Maybe a herb garden for personal use in future. Thats a thought. oh back to thailand… news has it that people are starting to protest again. i will seriously curse that country if the protestors dare to strike at the airport again and deny me my entry towards glorious escapism from reality.

want to be at europe now. like now. if my friends cannot make it should i just go myself with the lonely planet guide? I wonder if i can survive.

EAT BIG.

Went with my mom for marketing the other day and saw some serious big-ass fruits! Holy smokers!

The uncle had only this one jackfruit on the table that day. you can wonder why. and the banana? lets not even go there haha.

I have a problem that many do not know,
a bug called nervousness which mostly does not show
it clings on my back and on my throat,
which makes me slouch and only croak

Bug oh bug why are you so,
to deny me things i work hard to sow
to take away chances as you seem fit,
only for your pleasure and me to groan

But now i see you sneaky bug,
and I’ll do whatever it takes to make you go
I’ll sing my blues away everyday,
and put you to slumber with each date

I’ll practice speeches with myself,
than talk with you and hear you laugh
I’ll pen down thoughts the moment they go,
than let you dictate how the story goes

I’ll watch happy movies by myself,
than let you cast that downside frown
I’ll race against time and prove myself,
than see you appear to steal my crown

So bug oh bug now do you see,
Its time you should just disappear
for life has always been one big fight,
and you better not count on me to let go

- Xinhe  : )

I guess its time to write some cutsey poems haha. When there is no more school work your mind is really willing to explore more options of usage.

Today on the bus i was looking up at one of the taller buildings along the road.

There it was. A flock of birds circling around the buildings in the skies, spreading out their wings and looking out for a place to rest. But it was awkward because i suddenly realised that they seemed to look like flies at that instant. Irritating pests, refusing to leave the building they have set their eyes on as the invisible swatter in the form of the crushing winds could only displace their positions temporarily, but never chase them away.

Oh, how what an awful thought. Probably i thought this way since it was really an unsightful mis-match to bear. And its sad to admit how the animals and creatures of nature has had to blend in towards the progression of the human race so awkwardly and ungracefully. If only there was an oasis to distinctively separate us while preserving both at the same time. Will earth then become a more beautiful place?

LEGEN…. wait for it, DARY.

Was on the car with adeline yesterday when a radio contestant totally made a big fool out of herself.

It was a contest between her and this guy and they had to shout out their names first in order to answer a series of questions asked by the DJ.

The question was: What is Fluoride associated with…
(A) Swimming Pool
(B) Cooking Oil
(C) Toothpaste

What a giveaway right? Well this girl by the name of rozaline screameeeeed out her name as soon as possible (im sure the DJs tot she shouted first because the volume just completely covered the guy’s one) and was asked for the answer.

True enough in ultimate bimbo fashion, she screamed her answer in delight… “COLGATE!!!“

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. How did the DJs refrain themselves from laughing, i dont know. But seriously, this girl should at least have the decency to be blonde if she is to live up to the stereotype truely.

The people at Colgate needs to use this as one of their advertisement. Its simply ingenious: getting your point across while retaining the bragging rights as well.

Aye Papaya love this shiz. EPIC FAIL.